spit, mixed with dirt – muddy words flow
Knowing me, as I do
This won’t happen
There’s no special alignment
Of stars or planets for me
For I am
Worthless, apparently
Not worth a little time or energy
Always I try
To make the right decisions
But they always seem to be
Poor in the end
I’m haunted
By sin and regret
Just once
I want it to go right
I want to be loved
I want to be the most important person
In someone’s eyes
Maybe even for just a week?
A day, perhaps?
I want to be held close
And tightly
I don’t want my motives questioned
I don’t want to take a backseat
Or be an afterthought
I want my heart to make just one
Good and perfect decision
But…
Knowing me, as I do
I know this won’t happen
It’s not written in the stars for me
For I am
Just…
Me
tara caribou | ©2018-2021
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This hit so close for me. Great work.
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I am content when my words can touch another soul. Thanks, Dragon.
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You’re very welcome, Tara
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❤
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Heartfelt lines….the best part is you are simply YOU!
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Thanks so much Navin… and YOU are you!
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✨
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You’re reading my heart. ♥️
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Much love to you my friend.
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Beautifully evoked musings ❤🌹
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Or is it? Often the best things happen just at the moment when we stop looking or hoping for them. A powerfully introspective piece Tara.
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I agree, that does seem to be the case oftentimes. For me, I noticed once the deep introspection passed and I was able to, with a clearer, more analytical mind, step back and review my own self, in whole rather than in the smaller parts, I could see my actual reality rather than from just the one small perspective… if that makes sense. I have found that the things I thought I needed, could be filled with other things quite as well, maybe better. I am content.
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Go for it
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Yes. Seeing the bigger picture clearly helps – though it’s not always easy.
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You know it.
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Beautiful 💛
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Thank you😊
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Gorgeous heartfelt verses, Tara! ❤
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Thanks my friend.
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Beautiful writing and photo. I think you probably do more right than you realize.
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It’s possible. Who’s to say anymore? Thanks for your kind words.
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Yeah this hit HARD ❤
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Beautifully heartbreaking.
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Thanks Goldie.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet and commented:
Don’t Miss This Great Poem from – Tara
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Wow! Such an Awesome poem, My Dear!!! Bellissimo! So full of deep and beautiful emotions! Such a Beautiful capture of a yearning heart!! Could You? Would You, be so kind to all your devoted followers, like me, and turn this into The Perfect Post – by adding an audio recording of you reciting this so that we can close our eyes and visualize and feel your voice conveying all the feelings and emotions this piece holds. So we can fully focus on the feelings of your heart instead of being distracted by the words??? Please, Please? 😊😁✨👍
xoxox
Chuck
😘💕💖😍🌹🌹
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Thanks Chuck. I will try.
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Ahhh, You are too sweet! Thanks for being willing to try! I think it will be Awesome letting your voice add feeling and emotion to your words!!! Yeah! 😍😁😊🌹🌹🌹
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A poignant poem, Tara. Thanks for sharing. Have a good weekend.
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Thanks Guy.
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good job!
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Thanks Frank. I appreciate that.
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❤
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