Afterthoughts
Posted on May 14, 2021
by tara caribou
47 Comments
beneath the jagged waves
my face silently slips
moonlight accents edge peaks and valleys
and I’m no longer fighting it
releasing my final breath
I’m floating softly in this cold new world
sinking down
into the vast depths
I look above to see the gentle beams
reflections of some far off light
sifting through the murky wastes
motes of debris
drifting and slowly swirling
I am one speck of many
precious becoming no longer seen
here amongst the others
somehow I’m quietly calm and
each thought slows
s l o w s
s . l . o . w . s
numbing peace fills every part of me
I am forgetting all that passed before
and who I was
I simply am
you’ll never see these tears again for
I am of the sea and
she belongs in me
and I in her
what is one drop among many?
I am sinking
I am swirling
I am falling
I am alone
and I will never be alone again
healing came from within
tara caribou | ©2019-2021 revised
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Category: Poetry, tara caribouTags: Acceptance, Calm, Depression, Free Verse, Freedom, Indie Author, Loneliness, Loss, Nature, Ocean, Peace, Poem, Poetry, Release
Sad, poignant, brutal, excellent ❤❤❤
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Awww thanks Jack!
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I’m still crying.
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I’m sorry!
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For some reason your writing took me immediately to “echoes” – the best 20-something minutes of Floyd … at least reminiscent … thanks 🙂
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That’s awesome! Definitely one of their best songs. I’m flattered it made you think of that. An honor.
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Devastatingly beautiful. Heartfelt & mournful. ❤
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Yes, thank you Tom.
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Love the flow of this piece
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That’s wonderful! Thank you!
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Drifting deep within…
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Indeed
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Healing came from within….. usually the last place we look.
So poignant Tara
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Exactly as I saw it, yes. Thanks for reading!
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I am happy to read an account of being something that one can not be. Yet deep inside there is a certain gem of satisfaction and contentment. Where will any healing arise than from that which is within? This covers a wider scope than the words allow. Loved it.
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Thanks John. Indeed they do. I had a lot swirling beneath the printed words for sure.
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You are welcome.
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How most deprived I would forever feel if truly lived to your…extinction.
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Awwww that’s a lovely response. Thank you.
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This is great, Tara.
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Thanks River
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You’re welcome.
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I love the last line, it seems to fight against the tide of the rest of the piece. We all go back to where we belong in the end. Underneath, all the same.
Loved it!
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Thank you Mark! I always appreciate your comments and insight.
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The imagery of drowning comes through loud and clear with this one: I get the flash of floating beneath the surface, day time, the sun shining and the water floating all particles near the surface as you sink to the depths, carried in the arms of the water.
But the title and that final line (bloaw) makes me think yes, there is sinking and there is the depths, but they’re not dark and dismal.
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A release into what the reality is rather than fighting it. This is me, realizing that dreams don’t always come true, that what I want will not ultimately be achieved, that wanting doesn’t make real…. and that if I release and accept myself to reality, it’s a lot more peaceful than fighting it.
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Surrendered to the undertow. Yes, I can see that.
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I surrender… and refuse to accept… and surrender… and refuse…
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Think of it like this: you don’t take no shit from binary choices. Sink or swim? Nah, for you, it’s sink AND swim. Show them waters who’s boss! (you, in case you were wondering.)
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💚💙
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Deeply beautiful.
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Thank you 😌
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i live a thousand miles from the nearest sea – this made me long for it both literally and in resonance with your metaphors … peaceful and final … ending but eternal …
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Ending but eternal… I like that.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Very skillfully and poignantly evoked 💚💙💚💙
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i love this! really beautifully penned, tara.
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Thank you Jay 😌
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What powerful imagery, Tara. Have a good weekend.
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Thanks Guy! You too!
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Too beautiful…I’ve missed you, friend.
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oh my goodness, B!!!! I’ve missed you so much!! Seriously, I think about you nearly every day, no exaggeration. I’ve been worried but thought maybe you needed a break. You have such a special place in my heart. 💕
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I think about you too.
I did dumb stuff for the last year that made me not really care about creativity or art or even music, but I’ve kicked the dumb stuff. I really want to post something, I have a lot to say, but my brain is a bit fried and overloaded so it might take a while.
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When you’re ready… I will listen 😌
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This is exciting work! This stanza blew me away:
“somehow I’m quietly calm and
each thought slows
s l o w s
s . l . o . w . s”
Great work!!!!
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Awesome! So glad you enjoyed this one.
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Super good!
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