spit, mixed with dirt – muddy words flow
A fever has overtaken my addled mind. My flushed skin feels tight, stretched, too small. In the mirror I see a reflection of a woman, but it’s as if through another set of eyes. I am a stranger within my own flesh. It wasn’t always this way.
It’s like I am sitting beside myself, and the other me is occasionally breathed back through the nostrils in my eye. I feel fuzzy in the head, and then calm and am not sure about what I just said. I’m but a shard of man, aching bitter-sad. Teddy bears haunt my eyes, but it’s the jackals that have my cock. He’s the man I’ve always known. He’s the man who sits alone.
I met him one rainy September night, outside a bar in Tennessee. His black jeans and skin-tight black t-shirt and black spiky hair…. mmmmm, yeah, I was already a goner. He eyes flashed bright for a moment as he asked if he could buy me a drink and I didn’t say no. One drink, we told each other lies. Two, he touched my arm as I laughed. Three, I leaned in for a kiss. Before we got to four, I took him back to my place. Kissing my neck as I unlocked the door, pulling him inside quickly, he lifted me up and fucked me against my front door.
She kisses me like I’m me but her eyes caution she’s wound in vulgar snap, of Apollo’s clasp. We bludgeon her front door with the bulk of our mysteries, darting in and out of each other’s eye cavities in frantic search pulse, a string, tied to a balloon of melancholy waiting to be burst – as my dick excreted its worst into her numbing grotto. It was great.
The rest of the night we spent in various compromising positions. It was incredible as he met me quite perfectly as a lover. For a night. There were moments when his voice would alter in pitch and he’d be calling out in tongues. I ate it up as he fucked me hard. The following morning was almost domestic as we made breakfast together and giggled about some of the funnier moments from the last 16 hours. We kissed at the door, he bit my lip until I bled, I moaned in his mouth and waved him goodbye. He went his way and I went mine. It was a good fuck.
Stupid jokes. I had to listen to her cackle like some breed of haughty witch as she whirled her coffee to frothy cloud of debasement, only second floor version. I knew, as I wafted through the door, that her thoughts of me were dim and that every last flicker was devoured by that chiseled, brainless shit she called me.
While I kept remembering his hands on my body from the previous night, still imagine my surprise when he showed up at the bar again that night, pushing his way between me and another patron at the bar. He pecked me on the cheek familiarly. ‘What are you doing?!’ I sputtered. Didn’t he understand how this works?? Apparently not. His dark eyes went luminous as I spent the next 45 minutes trying to convince him we were only good for the one night before finally giving up, paying my tab, and heading home.
Wow, how her eyes bloomed wide when I made my way into the bar. So pleased to see me, she waltzed back to allow me the space to spread. Her face lost a few shades as her lech for me drained into the sockets of her bloodshot bulbs. This wasn’t the spit of chance. The seed was lit.
Not thirty minutes passed before he was once more at my front door. I stepped out to put an end to “this” once and for all. His piercing words chilled me. I will devour you, bite by bite, inside out. But at least he left. My lip started bleeding again. The following morning, I felt a little sick and stayed home instead of going out. A week later, the fever arrived. I kept seeing glances of him out of the corner of my eye. His fingers trailing across my heated flesh. And a feeling of me not being my own self within my skin: what had he done to me?
The seer grabbed her by the wrists, and said “sit”, so she did. As lass looked down at her tapping toes she didn’t quite know what boiled from below, so she slowed, a bit. The crimson leaves swayed from torching this trees in the deep of her pit. Now aglow, from the man she cared not to know, and now, as she drooled ash, she felt it.
I regretted not getting his number. Or knowing his last name even. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. My skin became dry and itchy, heated from within. Scabbed over scratches across my body. Days and nights filled with longing. I kept my curtains closed and pulled them aside periodically just to see if perhaps he stood out there for me. My belly began to swell, my brain separated, and I began to listen to a new voice instead.
Anthony Gorman & tara caribou | ©2018-2021
Writing with Anthony was curiously entrancing. His dark, provocative style worked incredible images in my mind. He has a way of looking at things sideways and perhaps through a mirror. Maybe a bit like Picasso. Check him out over at hands in the garden.
original artwork and the occasional rant
Art Consignments in Ninilchik, Alaska
Apologies for my apologies
Poetry by Charles Joseph
We Survived and Arrived - Now as Warriors We Thrive
Writer and Artist
a collection of short poetry from an autistic mind
Poetry, Photography, and Thoughts
The Lies in the Skies Exposed
"When I am writing, I am trying to find out who I am..." --Maya Angelou
Welcome to my tiny corner of the universe filled with poems that I have written.
Author | Freelance Writer | Blogger
livingforthemoon
Butterwell's Blog
Reblogged this on hands in the garden and commented:
My first official collaboration.. I feel… shaken. 😉 It was a pleasure exchanging brains with the very talented Tara Caribou of Caribou Crossings. Hope you enjoy the read.
LikeLiked by 3 people
My pleasure. Truly!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wow, this is quite the collaboration here. I can clearly hear both of your voices, but they have synchronized quite beautifully into a harmonious and utterly unique song. I read this aloud to Blackbird, and we found it to be rather thought-provoking… Thank you for the excellent creative output.
LikeLiked by 4 people
Hey thanks! It was great working with Anthony. He really pushed me 🙂 I honestly had to take a nap when I was done writing.
LikeLiked by 2 people
I would imagine so. He is a very intense writer, and I would imagine that attribute extends to his personality and collaborative process. It definitely produces results… Great work, both of you.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thank you so much. I appreciate it. I’m hoping we can write together again soon.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Lovely,you both are great and fit together wonderfully in this piece
LikeLiked by 2 people
Well thank you so very much.
LikeLiked by 2 people
You are so very much welcome😊I really enjoyed it
LikeLiked by 2 people
Tara basically wrote the story’s skeleton… it provided more than enough flint to spark a nice toasty fire underneath, It was a privilege to work with her.. my words provided the dusting on an otherwise well conceived tale.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Partly true. LOL. You are just too humble, Anthony! Your conception, my skeleton, our muscles/organs, your skin. Ha! 😛
LikeLike
A bit dark for my lighter way of being, but that is just my comment, and not necessarily telling you two that it wasn’t intense, which it was. Very.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Dark and intense was what I was hoping for. Thanks for not liking, Wayne 😉
LikeLike
Liking implies just that, but again it was something else than I might have expected. I could say, I was pleasantly surprised, or less than so, but it was something that you’ve written, and I respect it in that way. I hope your thanks are sincere, as my intention was not to hurt, or maim.
LikeLiked by 1 person
It was and is, in fact, sincere.
LikeLiked by 2 people
WoW
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wow-good??
LikeLike
Yup very well illustrated. You guys are an inspiration.
LikeLiked by 1 person
We’ve written together a couple times and it’s always such a trip. Anthony is great guy. He’s like Picasso of the writing world lol.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Superb stuff!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks Chris! It’s always so fun to collaborate with other amazing writers.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh wow wow. This is winner.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks Yassy!! I think so too! ⭐️
LikeLiked by 1 person
The important and oft neglected eye nostrils. 👍🏻
LikeLiked by 1 person
I couldn’t agree more
LikeLiked by 1 person
I like how this ‘relationship’ develops, and your voices complement one another beautifully. I hope that you get to work together again sometime.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh, we worked together, I don’t know, five? six? times. I can’t remember now lol. But it is always fun. Anthony is a different kind of a guy, for sure. He sees the world a bit differently and I like that.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I too like his work. I read alot so apologies for not remembering that you had collaborated before!
LikeLiked by 1 person
I don’t think you followed me when we collaborated… and yes, I read a lot too so I completely understand! I wasn’t offended lol
LikeLiked by 1 person
☺
LikeLike
Wow, I loved the visceral internal dialogue and relationship between the characters. Fantastic.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks Rachel. I rather liked this one too. ☺️
LikeLiked by 1 person
I loved this…amazing writing.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks so much.
LikeLiked by 1 person
You’re welcome
LikeLike
Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
LikeLike
totally engrossing to read, brilliant 🙂
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks!
LikeLiked by 1 person
wow, that was quite the dance! good collab, must’ve been an interesting ride to take. 😉
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh totally!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Quite a twisty tale. You’re just never sure where it will go next. I really liked the counting of drinks and what happened after/before each. It was melodic.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I’m glad you liked this one, Goldie!
LikeLiked by 1 person